schedule for today

Posted by teetin at 05:30 AM on March 26, 2008.

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my now.

Posted by teetin at 02:53 PM on March 25, 2008.

i haven't blogged for.. seven months?!

wow.

considering that i used to blog everyday when i was in highschool, this is is a totally unsual event.

but come to think of it, it's not really a surprise because i was busier this school year. acad-wise and org-wise.

i know that almost all of the people who would come to know me would tell me that i'm being stupid in making the decision to continue training. it's not like i'm ending my plans of finishing my premed coourse.

i've been trying to look for support. my family's in Davao - too far away. I need support from the people i'm with here in Manila. I need positive people who would cheer me on.. People who would tell me that i have it in me to succeed. i feel like i need a guidance counselor, telling me that i'm not stupid, that failing is a normal thing, that i am not a humiliation to my family, that college is a totally different world, that there are a lot of people like me, that i am not alone, etc.

i can't seem to find the help i need right now. i gave up looking for help from friends. even if it's just through chatting, i can feel that they pity me. it's hard to ask for help when they don't "get it".

I don't need pity. i don't need more criticisms. i don't need insults. My Gad. don't make me feel worse!

I tried reading my bible the other day. I ended up crying.

Let this be a learning experience. If i fail, let this be my WAKE UP CALL.

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one thing i've noticed being in my course is that i don't seem to have any "tambay" friends. maybe that's one of the factors why i don't look forward to going to my classes. LONER AKO. hahaha.

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these past few days

Posted by teetin at 03:04 AM on August 27, 2007.

I just want to post this entry so that my friends know what i've been up to lately. It seems like I haven't seen them for a long time already.

Last last week, bagyong Egay caused heavy rainfall which eventually led to the suspension of classes here in NCR. Many of my friends rejoiced and started planning on when to watch movies and whatever.

Well, for my orgmates and I, it was BUSY TIME!

Last Wednesday, we had rehearsals for the upcoming performances. Since i was part of the costume committee, it was work time for us as well.

Starting THURSDAY(Aug16) up until MONDAY(Aug20), I've been waking up at 6am, just so that I could go to Bliss early.

Being part of the Costume Committee is hard work but it's fun at the same time. We sew the damaged parts of costumes and we iron them in time for the next perf.

THURSDAY:AUG16
I woke up at 6. Went to Bliss. Ayos Costumes. Had rehearsals at the 2nd floor of the Bahay ng Alumni. We went to the Manila Cathedral because we were invited to sing for Cardinal Rosales' Birthday. Jamie Rivera was there and I saw that she was short (like me!). I didn't notice that she was short up until she walked right in front of me. I don't remember the exact repertoire.. Alleluia Mozart, Prayer of Saint Francis, Lead me Lord, The Prayer, He's Got the Whole World In his Hands.. Etc. I got teary eyed when we sang Lead me Lord and the Prayer of Saint Francis. I tried my best to stop the tears from falling. I knew that if cried, my voice would get affected. HEHE. After the perf, I found out that there were people who just let their tears fall. That was a fun perf!! Afterwards, we went to the Chowking branch nearby and we practiced the songs for the perf the next day.

FRIDAY:AUG17
Went to Bliss at 7am. Afterwards, we met at the FC sidesteps to rehearse. Uhm. Kuya Ed arrived..angry. Anyways. O_O We practiced the steps of Joyful, Joyful before moving to the Bahay ng Alumni. I forgot what time we left.. We all went to 1 Esplanade. It's a big function hall located near MOA. It looks like a box, but it's really cool inside. HEHE. We were assigned a tent which was outside the hall. It was the Anniversary i think of the AFS Philippines. [for more info, go to http://www.afs.ph] For the first part, we wore the Pitoy gowns. I was wearing ate Jhera's (blue green plus fuschia sash). For the second part, we wore the white Renee Salud costume (again, i wore ate Jhera's hehe). We danced sang and danced Joyful, Joyful. I missed dancing so much! Huwah. There were a lot of songs, so i can't dictate the repertoire for that night. hehe. Robert Sena was also there. Ang galing niya grabe

Afterwards, we battled our way into the vans. It was raining cats and dogs! When we finally arrived at Bliss, we brought the used costumes back up to the fourth floor. Kuya Ed lent us his shirts because we got wet from the rain. [oh no i still haven't returned Kuya Ed's shirt! O_O]

It was raining so hard and i couldn't go home alone. It was dangerous. I asked permission if i could stay overnight at the boarding house of my close friends in UPSA. Good thing my aunt agreed. Tis, Ate Em and ate Agnes were very accomodating. HEHE

SATURDAY: AUG18
I woke up at around 7am because I had to go home so that i could take a bath. I texted my aunt to tell her that I was going home, but i will leave shortly after because our officers planned to have a very important meeting. My aunt told me that if i went home, she wouldn't let me out of the house anymore. Not wanting to miss the meeting, i bought certain essentials and went to my batchmates' condo at Prince David. I took a bath there and then hailed a cab so that i could go to Cafe Quezon already (it's along maginhawa. Near the entrance to the Bliss area.)

We had a very long meeting. We started at around 11, and ended at 10pm. We ate a lot and i believe we accomplished a lot. Kuya Ed discussed the tentative plans for the group's tour in 2008. (Go ates and kuyas! ^___^ ) As for me, i still have to improve A LOT. Anyways, we also updated the committees people were assigned into. As of today, aside from being part of the costume committee, i am now also a part of the Membership committee and the Special Projects Committee. I'm under ate MJ and ate Ricca! Weee

SUNDAY: AUG19
Rehearsals at CAL. 2pm. Afterwards, we had another meeting at Mcdo Philcoa. Went home late again. I don't remember what time exactly.

MONDAY: AUG20
Went to Bliss to iron costumes. The perf for that night was for the 20th Anniversary of Cebuna Lhuillier. We performed at Manila Oriental. We wore the Maria Clara Costume. The repertoire was also quite heavy so i can't dictate the titles of the songs. Hmm.. AH! Kuya Vic did my make up that night. ANG GALING NIYA WAAAH. I should learn to do that. hmmm. Right before we left the hotel, we had our picture taken with Yilman. He was just outside the hotel. Hehe. He seems nice. hmm.

The week flew by without much performances. We had a performance for Natasha (the shoe brand) just KANINA (AUG26Sunday). We sang at Philippine Plaza. We sang the invocation and then we went back two more times because we sang more songs. There was a part1 and part2. We wore the Renee Salud "Krayola" costume and of course, the Natasha shoes they gave UPSA. HEHE. They are black strappy heels that are really nice. HEHE. We met Sam Milby. He was a guest and he sang "Only You".

There's no classes tomorrow and that's a good thing! Because, i just really really want to sleep and rest. I'm going to make time for my studies tomorrow. I have to catch up. HM..

Well, that's all. Good night!
1:54am Aug27.

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Posted by teetin at 01:19 AM on July 19, 2007.

WAAA i missed blogging.

These past few weeks have been very... HECTIC.

Not a day has passed without me worrying about something related to schoolwork. So many papers and readings... more exams are coming up and i still have 15 page paper to finish by next week! (10 pages more to go. hahah). Our first exam in biology11 wasn't that bad.. luckily i (think) i prepared well enough so i might get a high grade. HM. Artstud1 with Sakili is still the same... half of the time i don't understand what he's saying. O_O He talks soo fast. Comm3 with Decenteceo is till dragging. I think i'm one of the unlucky ones who's gotten a boring prof in comm3.. like hello, i haven't heard anyone else from my batch complain. HUHU. Malas.

I feel more pressured during choir practice nowadays because the tentative date for our "exam" is on July29. That's barely 2 weeks from today. That's going to be the 2nd exam i'm gonna have to take since i entered the choir. We're supposed to sing our exam pieces as quartets and i've been having a hard time memorizing the new songs! Ang haba-haba tapos hindi pa english. The lyrics are easy, but the tune is hard to remember. CRAP. [TEETIN PAGTARONG KAY BAKA MATANGGAL KA PA SAYANG.]

I've been sleeping late as usual, but not because of internet surfing and chatting on ym. It's just that i've really been busy with important stuff. To add to the lack of sleep, i had PE (sportsclimbing) today so that means my arms and legs are tired from climbing. O_O My eyes hurt and i just want to sleeeeeeep. Unfortunately i have a 5page paper on Chemical Equilibrium that i have yet to start making. After that, i'm going to look for sources for our lab report on Common Ions BLAH.. (basta mahabang title).

Teetin's TAWOID but i can't just relax and procrastinate (..even more) . Ako lang naman din ang mahihirapan kung hindi ko matatapos ang lahat ng 'to.

Academics + UPSA? .. Kaya ko toh --->> Dapat lang.

WeH.

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